I was going through my to-do list today and I have basically finished most of them, I think =X

So I tot I might as well update my blog, since I even managed to clean up my horrible and messy table =P

Many week have passed since I last blogged, and same to working. I have been working for abt a month and a half, teaching at a student care centre, Ananias.

Hmm. teaching hasn’t been easy by far, I know too little and I gotta admit, I can’t really control my kids. Most importantly, I think I can’t control my own temper very well.

Teaching was a career that I had once set as my ambition, but after these weeks of teaching, I’m glad I gave up on tt tot long ago and I know I had made the right choice.

I actually tot of stopping teaching after june, but I think i might just continue till the next sem starts. Some kind of stupid stubbornness in me, trying to do better, teach the kids better, is making me preserve on and I hope this determination doesn’t kill me in the process =X

Yupp, the kids aren’t tt bad actually. I do have fun with them, especially with the p1 and 2 kids, they are very cute! show u guys some of them!





I mainly teach the p4s and I derive great amount of satisfaction when they understand what I’m trying to teach them. They are quite a good bunch of kids, just tt sometimes, it really gets on my nerves when they don’t do their work allocated to them. Like some stupid brats liddat, need to cajole and bribe them to do their work, if not, threaten them. But then again, sometimes it doesn’t work. =(

and i will lose control of the kids sometimes and no matter how many times i shout, they don't listen =( then i will try to look around for help, relying on somebody else to help me control them. if not, i will lose my temper at them. some teacher i am. sigh.

Why the hell are kids not afraid of their teachers now anymore?! Rah. It doesn’t help when I have teacher phobia, and I think kids should listen to their teachers and not openly defy them. I mean, even if I didn’t like my teachers, I only rant and scold behind of their backs =X

Sigh. And, I think the lack of doing council work for such a long time, has made be forgotten the basic ways of leadership. Apologies to go those who taught me leadership stuff, the money for those enrichment course and to myself. So many years of doing all these things, and in the end, the planning and execution of a simple trip to botanic gardens I can’t do well.

Reflections arh, reflections. Gotta admit, I did quite a poor job in bringing the kids in my grp around for the treasure hunt. Forgot to set the basic rules and instructions to follow, forgot to instill the sense of grp work, forgot to brief the rest of the kids the treasure hunt properly…and the list goes on.

I think I really need to get myself together. Usually, spending time with kids, would make one try to set a better example and let the kids follow. But me, I think I have the tendency to want to behave like them, to indulge in the play tt they get to have, instead of behaving like a responsible adult that I’m supposed to be. Tt’s kinda bad right? Sigh.

Growing up means many decisions to make, many things to consider. Thinking means killing brain cells. Sigh. But, this doesn’t mean stop thinking and ignore abt things that are happening. At least I get to consider the choices in my hand. The sudden dead of an ex-classmate, made me know how blessed I am. The trip down to Singapore casket with the ‘family’ to pay our last respect to Andrew, made me feel grateful to be alive and glad that my closest friends are with me. Treasure what you have right now. And to Andrew, may he rest in peace.
always loved.